Xiao Hei died. It was sad. Everyone told me "Don't cry". But easier said than done... It feels horrible to know that you just lost someone dear and you won't be able to see him ever again. He was one remarkable puppy. These are the little things that I remember about him...

1. He was borne on the 16th of June 2009, at approximately 6am
2. He was the darkest amongst his siblings, so it was very easy for us to identify
3. He had a white streak of hai at his forehead and his chest
4. His mouth was surrounded by a white patch of hair
5. He had his tail cut off three days after he was borned
6. He was able to walk when he was about one month old
7. He had his first bath on the
8. He fell asleep during his first bath:)
9. He loves to eat chicken
10. He loves to nap under the aircon pipe in the balcony
11. He plays with my hair everyday
12. When I neglect him, he would come to me and bite me to attract my attention
13. He was already toilet trained when he died, unlike his siblings
14. When he just learned how to walk, he kept toppling over and did somersaults
15. He often put his feet inside the water bowl before drinking
16. He hates baths
17. He is the only one that does not fight with his mother for anything
18. He was the youngest amongst his siblings
19. When he was about one months old, he was fatter than Xiao Pang
20. He had his first vaccination on the 18th of August, at approximately 1pm
21. His mom was pregnant with him and his siblings for 59 days
22. He was the only one that recognizes me among the litter
23. He was my favourite
24. He likes the green tea flavor dog biscuit
25. He fights with Xiao Bai very often
26. He always sleeps outside the masterbedroom with his siblings
27. He likes to sleep under the sofa
28. He always fight with his siblings under the sofa
29. He would use his paws and "dig" the hole in the speaker under the study room table
30. Recently, he would crawl under the bench in the living room and fight with his siblings there
31. He always pee at the corridor when we let him out
32. Like Puffy, he half walk half hop all the time
33. He still walks in a criss cross manner
34. He was only 13cm when he was borned
35. He is currently and foever will be about 50cm
36. His fur colour was the closest to Puffy's
37. He was 75 days old when he died
38. He died on the 31st of August 2009, at approximately 10pm
39. He was waiting for us to come home before he died
40. He died of a viral attack
41. He died in pain
42. He was still warm when they brought him to the pets' hospital
43. His body stiffened, I felt it
44. Whenever I was using my laptop, he would walk by and start sniffing it and hitting the keys with his nose
45. He likes drinking milk
46. He cannot run, he can only hop run
47. When they were still nursing, he would occupy 2 nipples instead of 1
48. He was afraid of heights
49. He plays with toilet roll a lot.
50. He shreads newspapers
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There is so much more about him... But I just can't bring myself to continue... It breaks my heart to remininise about him... Why??? Why did he had to go??? I blame myself. Why did I agree to go on the trip??? If not this tradegy could have been prevented, he might not die... or, at least I could have spent his last few hours with him... I took 2 videos of his bath... But i deleted one of them by accident. I thought "nevermind, I can always take another one". But no. i will never get the chance to see him again, not to mention video. I blame myself, I should have known something was wrong when he started having diahroea. Why did I not sense that there is something wrong??? He was so active and he suddenly became so quiet. I feel so stupid. Everytime I look at the three of them, I will be reminded of the 4th one. The one that left this world in pain , the one that was neglected, the one that breaks my heart whenever I think about him... I want him to come back... I would trade anything for that... I blame myself...I'm so sorry